Laxatives

Another reason I'm not excited at all about my plan B is because I've been, as I cannot think of any other way to put it, addicted to laxatives. If my math is right (which most likely is cause I'm a math geek) I've taken more than 600, yes - SIX HUNDRED laxatives, this year alone. When I came to that realization (like 4 days ago) I decided I had to put an end to that vicious cycle. I've been 'clean' since Sunday which is not a long period of time but as I was used to taking 2 a day it's quite a milestone. I took them practically every single day, but back in May I was like obsessed I would go and swallow 8 at a time. One day I think I had 16, or somewhere around that. on that day I flipped out. I know laxatives are super bad for you, your overall health and your heart. But I could NOT stop. So I wanted to be healthier and started taking the usual 2 per day, which is the maximum dose you are allowed to take. It's quite shocking to remember that I used to take eight times more than the amount considered healthy.
I just really hope that if I do have to take them I don't go back to those habits.

Stay Strong and remember to Think Positive

xoxo